It’s so strange how the world works, how the heavens look out for you and provide what you NEED.
One extended random conversation displaying what complete dorks we are led to one of those moments. On May 2nd I lost my best friend and soul mate, and I had to push it down to prevent people from thinking that I lost it. I buried it so deep, and put on a smile, because that’s what people want to see, but I’ve never felt so alone or lost before.
It wasn’t that I didn’t feel supported, I have lots of friends, and a wonderful family, but I refused to allow my grief to pull them in, so I covered it up to spare them from my pain. I functioned each day, and numbed myself to the point that I couldn’t grieve anymore. One random day, Eli messaged me, and was on the receiving end of complete Word Vomit. We talked for a bit about my loss, and he offered some guidance, a shoulder, and a reading. There are things that only I would know or understand, and as the reading went on, it became very evident that my friend is still with me, watching out for me, and helping me on my quest to find happiness. I cried like a baby! The first time since 2 weeks after his passing. I let it out, and unblocked myself. I can feel him now, and I’m healing. I honestly think that Elion was the catalyst for that change, and extremely thankful that he is part of my life.